Queer and proud!

Hey, darlings! Happy New Year! Blame the 5 guys I’ve met recently for posting my first blog after almost three weeks into 2018. Their names are Michael, Brian, Emmett, Ted and Justin. Do their names ring a bell? If not, you ain’t Queer enough.

So my German boyfriend introduced me to these guys while I was in Berlin and I got hooked. I’ve been binging Queer As Folk just after the new year. It turns out that it’s an old tv series that even has its UK version. The reasons why I only started watching this show, 13 years after its last episode was aired is because a.) we didn’t have it in the Philippines (as far as I know) and b.) it will be put down by the close-minded, homophobic, bigot, hypocritical authorities in here. I mean even if it was aired in here, I probably won’t bother watching it. Just because I’m gay doesn’t mean I have to watch and do anything gay-related. Alright, fine, maybe more than that lol. Besides, I grew up watching Gossip Girl and Sex & the City, what isn’t gay with that?

Anyway, I love the show. I should’ve asked my boyfriend’s box set and devour on a tub of ice cream in this hell of a hot weather in this country. God. I just finished the season 1, and I just finished the 4th episode of season 2. It’s about Pride in Pittsburgh! Speaking of Pride, I’m thinking of going to the Pride in Berlin in July and spend my birthday there as well! If everything goes according to the plan, and I hope it does, I’d be as excited as a dog who waggles its tail whenever it sees its owner! Seeing my boyfriend again (if he can’t visit me in Manila beforehand), celebrating our first Pride together, celebrating my birthday with him, have tons of sex (*wink*), and other couple-y things.

Now excuse me while I carry on watching Queer as Folk. Ciao, bitches!


A Céline Tribute


So sad to be hearing the news of Phoebe Philo’s exit from Céline! I owe some to her. Her designs and aesthetics were my inspiration when I dress up or when I dream about my future home (after going into her store at Mount St. in London).

I had that phase where I had to go to the high street—coz I couldn’t afford it (and still can’t lol) and combine simple yet sharp pieces that would reflect the “Philophile” inside moi. Then I went to the more-is-more phase again, going for loud prints and colours, then fell back to the clean, nonchalant elegance that a Céline inspired lewk evokes. I got my first ever pair of Stan Smiths after seeing Mother Philo sporting one in one of her finale bows. My first ever luxury bag was a Céline Phantom Luggage Mock Croc in Navy Blue, and it’s the only one I have so far. Then followed the shoes. Then my very trusty pair of sunglasses that I think suits me perfectly. And don’t get me started on the knot bracelet!

I gotta say that my fave Céline show, the one that got me drawn into Phoebe’s world was her AW2013 show. I was just amazed by each look more and more starting from those light, powdery colours transitioning into dark but still just as elusive colours towards the end. The laundry bag-printed reversible coats, the very chic silhouettes and layering that had just made me in awe after watching the whole show via livestream. I had the plaid, interwoven Berlingot clutch which I regrettably sold. I am still not over it, even more so now since I’m telling you all about it!!

Phoebe Philo and Céline will always be one for me. Say if she launches her own brand, I would surely go for it! Here are some of my favourite Céline looks and campaigns throughout Phoebe’s reign. Click click click!

Now, get your hands on everything Céline under Phoebe before a new designer enters! Ready, set, go!!!!

P.S. you gotta read this article about her!


So, my 20-day stay in Germany has already ended which means that I’m going to be separated from my boyfriend too. I was crying so hard at random times days before my flight back to Manila; and then today came, I’ve cried so hard that even I made my boyfriend cry too with the sight of me looking like a little boy who’s pet poodle just died.

We were both feeling good until the actual time when I had to get through passport control. It was rather more like a scene out of a movie ‘coz he gave me a very good kiss on the lips and a tight hug even if my face was already wet and swollen from crying. I couldn’t let him go… I just couldn’t. I couldn’t get enough of him that I even called him while waiting to board; and luckily, there’s a glass wall between us that made us see each other physically for the last time while talking on the phone until we see each other again. We do regular video calls as part of our long distance relationship communication, but feeling him and making eye-to-eye contact with him won’t be the same anymore. Why do goodbyes have to be so hard? Who the fuck makes goodbyes so hard?

Writing this blog entry is making me teary eyed and is breaking my heart as the scenario at Tegel Airport keeps replaying on my mind. I’ve cried so much that I think it’s the hardest I cried this year. But I’ll choose to look on the brighter side—us seeing each other in person for the first time after meeting through Tinder on August is already a milestone. After all, we chose to make it official when we see each other for the first time, and so we did. Sure, long distance could be difficult. But if long distance is how we started and have managed to communicate everyday whether it’s a video call or simply texting, then surely we can ace it even more until we see each other again. It has been the best 20 days of my life so far. I love him. I miss him already.

I ❤️ Berlin

Hey y’all! What’s good? As you may know (if you’re following me on Instagram), I’m currently in Berlin; writing this blog post at KaDeWe’s café on their 6th floor while drinking green tea on a cold but sunny day. KaDeWe is Berlin’s version of London’s Harrods or to New York’s Bergdorf Goodman, fyi. The readings that I made about life in here didn’t disappoint me when I got to experience them myself, say, for example, with people’s way of forward-thinking.

I am having a lovely, quality time with my German boyfriend—Berlin born and bred, mind you. I am happy that I get to be who I really am or whoever as I please when I’m with him. This morning just before I dropped him off at work, I asked him if I looked so gay.. Imagine me wearing my JWA Pierce bag, Hermès-like scarf, and leopard print shoes. A man who wears those things I just mentioned while mixing them with menswear is definitely gay. And yet, my boyfriend told me that I looked great instead and that he likes my scarf.

Also, I get to be free in here for being gay. Like this morning, on the bus with my boyfriend, we were holding hands and literally no one, as in zero, young or old, not even the kids next to us whom I thought were gonna laugh at us or mock us didn’t bat an eyelid. At that moment I felt so free. I love the feeling of not being oppressed, whatsoever for being true to myself and for holding hands, or for making PDA with the man I love in public, unlike in backward-thinking, medieval, homophobic countries who are so stuck-up their arses.

Will try and keep you updated with my Berlin adventures! Stay tuned, darlings.

Ciao for now xx

Erdem x H&M


First was Balmain, then Kenzo, and the most recent one, Erdem. I have been attending the launch parties for 3 consecutive collaborations already and it’s always a privilege to go to these exclusive VIP parties and to get to shop before everyone else. Mind you, people who go to the VIP night don’t act much of a VIP once they get to the space where the merchandises are. As the fake Tiffany Wilson said “V.I.P., learn your acronyms.” Act accordingly! Lol!

Erdem, by far, is one of the best designer collaborations that H&M had in my opinion. It shows that refined romanticism aesthetic that the brand is known for. Not only that is seen in the collection but this collab is also a first for Erdem’s take in menswear! The menswear isn’t too bad at all. In fact, like the most used phrase that every shopper says once they see a lewk, “It’s so very me!”. Hope Erdem launches it’s menswear line after this! It’s not too far off since Stella McCartney launched hers just recently.

I rarely bought anything from the past collaboration launch parties I’ve been to. I just don’t know why, maybe it’s because I know it’s still H&M no matter how topsy-turvy the world can get. I loved the setting though, it’s a garden on steroids and it’s like being in that short film that Baz Luhrmann made for the collab. It’s utterly an old romantic English countryside vibe on it. Everyone who knows me well know that I love flowers and I’m a sucker for them.

Being at the party and seeing those “fashyown people” clad in nice outfits act like savages or as if they’re in a new season of Hunger Games is good enough to watch lol. Not having to bump onto them just to get something that embodies the term “fast-fashion” and beats the concept of “luxury”, per say, is worth it. Although I managed to get the black Erdem logo hoodie. As to how I decided to get it, my inner Rebecca Bloomwood influenced me. After all, it’s on my list and I have a torso, two arms and I don’t own a hoodie until this. Et voila!

Which piece/s are you eyeing on? I wanna know!

Shop the #ERDEMxHM collection tomorrow, Nov. 2 worldwide!!! (at H&M SM Makati in the Philippines)

Ciao for now!

J.W.Anderson x Uniqlo Haul!!


The long wait is finally over, oh my god!!! I’ve been looking forward to this collaboration ever since it was announced earlier this year and I’m so glad it’s finally dropped. Drop and cop as they say but I wasn’t able to cop all of the pieces like the tartan backpack and the rainbow-esque scarf as the key pieces I wanted to get and some other less major pieces that I didn’t get.

Woke up early this morning, or at least I think an early enough time to make it to the opening. I know not as many people would queue outside the stores as the people back in England or everywhere else do; hell, they even camp outside the night before the launch. And don’t deny it, Manila isn’t a fashion capital so you would assume that not many people know so much about what’s going in the industry.

So, I was confident that I’ll be getting the pieces that I wanted—lo and behold, I didn’t. I had to take the public transportation in here, and knowing that public transportation here in the Philippines is extremely medieval, I didn’t arrive on the dot. In fact, I was just 20 minutes late and the rails already looked like a typhoon lashed out on them. In the end, though, I got everything I wanted, more or less and shot those lewks on the same day (coming on my next blog posts!!!).

Oh, and the quality is very near to the real thing which the brand is also known for. I got a J.W.A. tunic (see one of my blog posts here) and you can feel the same “quality” with the clothes from this collaboration, of course, expect a little less coz this one’s not exactly exclusively and minimally produced like the namesake label. Can’t wait to wear them!!!

This year’s a good year for high street-designer collabs! One down, one more to go! Looking forward for the Erdem x H&M launch in November! Did you also buy anything from this collection? I wanna know about it!

Ciao for now! xx